Last night 2013 arrived as I watching Brenda Leigh Johnson beat a criminal in a lift in the final episode of The Closer. I don’t know what that says about the direction my life will take in 2013, but I admit I loved The Closer and was sad to see it finish.
Finishing, endings it’s what last night was all about. Out with the old and in with the new. New Year, new hope, new energy. Usually the first day of the year is spent clutching a glass of water and wearing dark glasses. This year I’ve had a cup of coffee, made my bed and checked in with the online world.
If nothing else, 2013 has begun differently as it’s begun sober. Stone cold sober. Not a sip of alcohol was consumed last night. I was given a bottle of wine the other day, in case I wanted to have a drink to celebrate the new year. It’s sitting on my desk. Unopened. Frankly until this morning I forgot it was there.
I like that. I like that I forgot. I take it as an omen of the year to come. A year where I will forget the negative and instead do something I love. A year where the sins of the past won’t haunt every day and where I’ll stop myself reliving the weights I use to mentally hold me down.
Oh how emo was that.
What I meant was I hope that 2013 is a more positive and action orientated year. Nothing more, nothing less. My goal for this year it to let go of expectations and just see what happens. To ride the waves of energy as they come. For a control freak, that’s a pretty big ask, but I think I’m up to the challenge.
Today is a beautiful day. Warm, bright shiny sun. I can hear cicada’s in the bushes. It’s the last week of my holidays and I’ve got me some plans.
Each day this year, I’m going to write down one thing I’m grateful for. There has to be one thing per day that makes me happy or allows me to be grateful. Those little moments get forgotten in the long term, but by writing them down I’m hoping to not only remember them, but also to focus on the good energy in my life.
My plans for this year – as I wrote yesterday – is to simply finish what I start. Whatever the project is, I aim to complete it. Part of me thinks “well you won’t be starting anything now will you” and another part keeps showing me flashes of images saying “you know you want to write this movie, here’s a scene.”
There’s no real point to this post beyond saying “Happy New Year” to everyone. I’m excited by what is to come this year. All those adventures currently hidden in the future. It’s been a long time since I’ve met the new year with a sense of excitement.
I wrote yesterday that I will miss 2012. It was the year I found my voice. I can’t wait to see how 2013 turns out. Hopefully it’s the year I find my spirit and my sense of creation.