Leave a Comment

Make It or Break It

Image has nothing at all to do with this post but I thought it was kind of cool

I’ve got to admit to a slight bit of trepidation after my act of total madness and absolute faith today. I’m 1 and a half weeks into The Artist’s Way, and feeling so focused and energised about not only my writing, but the thought of turning my idea into a fully fledged script. I know it will take time, and there’ll be high points and low points in writing it, but I have to be honest, I’m feeling so positive I just had to take another step.

This morning I woke up to find my post Rockin’ The Boat, which I wrote last night was highlighted on  Of Interest To @CDavies Today. This is the second time in 3 days one of my posts from here has found a home elsewhere and I can’t tell you how much that means to me.

I said to a friend today that I guess you need to be careful what you ask for. I asked for some proof from the universe that my writing would find an audience and 2 of the 5 posts I’ve written apparently have done just that. My friend – who will call Kirsty – laughed and said “so you don’t listen to me, but you listen to the universe” and my response, which would normally be to try and explain I did listen to her was to tell her “the scariest part of it all honey, is not that I’m listening to the universe, but that I’m finally listening to myself.”

I’m so excited by this journey I’m undertaking through The Artist’s Way. It’s opening my mind in so many ways I never expected. As a writer, I expected it to be all about ideas for new films etc, but what it seems to  be doing is ripping down the old excuses, turning a fresh light on stale thoughts and ensuring I make both a firm commitment and effort to actually completing the task I’ve set for myself.

Inspiration struck today while I was writing an email to a prospective presenter for an event I’m putting together, so at lunch I went to visit the Sydney Writers Centre website and signed up for their Screenwriting Stage 1 Course. It starts in late May and runs for 5 weeks. At the end I will have the first draft of a short film script completed.

I admit to being nervous about this, and wondering if I may have bitten off more than I can chew, but I will do it week by week, step by step, attempting to ignore the big picture problems I talked about in the first post in this blog. A little bit of faith  in myself isn’t going to go astray.

My point with this post is despite the fear of making my writing even more public than I do on here being strong, my desire to fully embrace my need to write is stronger. Whether the course makes my creative recovery or breaks it, I need to be able to look back one day in the future and know I gave it my all. If I ignored the nudge to do the course, or thought about it and didn’t act I wouldn’t be acting in concert with my own inner belief.

I read a quote in a book today that really resonated with me. I’ll leave the quote by Eleanor Roosevelt as the close to this entry.

“You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do. What is to give light must endure the burning..” – Eleanor Roosevelt

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s